Saturday, November 15, 2008

Love vs. Lust

I'm amazed how many times how quickly I confuse the two. I get so engrossed on how someone looks, and they are not always the GQ type, many times it's a guy I know that I become so fixated on the qualities. The humor, the sensitivity, and just the overall sense of his character, and I find myself longing for more. For a kiss, to run my fingers through his hair, to rub his shoulders, to be next to him. I seem to commonly make the mistake, or do I?

I guess never really feeling the love I think I know just makes it confusing. From 25 feet tonight I watched him, I've watched him for some time now, he's such a good person, and I want to treat him like he deserves to be treated. But damn, they are always straight. Why do I constantly do this to myself?

The other thing I wondered about tonight? Why is it that musicals and powerful music brings tears to my eyes? A good marching band show could have me in tears if I let it, a great musical will do the same thing, a symphony? forget about it! I just can't understand it. Is it something just bursting out of my mind? Why can't I control it?

So many other things on my mind, but I'm too tired tonight to get into them, it's off to bed for now. :)


  1. Lust is all the "emotion" you feel for someone when you "want" them. Love is when you still have all those emotions after you get them.

    Music tugs your heartstrings for the same reason love and lust do: you're human.

    (((BEAR HUG)))

  2. I've never heard it said quite like that before, it makes so much sense!

    You're good.