I'm amazed how many times how quickly I confuse the two. I get so engrossed on how someone looks, and they are not always the GQ type, many times it's a guy I know that I become so fixated on the qualities. The humor, the sensitivity, and just the overall sense of his character, and I find myself longing for more. For a kiss, to run my fingers through his hair, to rub his shoulders, to be next to him. I seem to commonly make the mistake, or do I?
I guess never really feeling the love I think I know just makes it confusing. From 25 feet tonight I watched him, I've watched him for some time now, he's such a good person, and I want to treat him like he deserves to be treated. But damn, they are always straight. Why do I constantly do this to myself?
The other thing I wondered about tonight? Why is it that musicals and powerful music brings tears to my eyes? A good marching band show could have me in tears if I let it, a great musical will do the same thing, a symphony? forget about it! I just can't understand it. Is it something just bursting out of my mind? Why can't I control it?
So many other things on my mind, but I'm too tired tonight to get into them, it's off to bed for now. :)