What?

So I think I'm trying to eat myself to death. I swear I would eat all day long if I let myself. I'm surrounded by horrible food all day and all night, and it's all I eat. I can't seem to satisfy my hunger and it's starting to scare the hell out of me.

My mind has been racing all night, maybe it's not good to take a night to myself.

I'm scared, I'm depressed, I'm lonely, all at the same time and it's a bit freaky.

All this and I haven't had any caffeine or alcohol today.

WTF???

Comments

  1. ellenjaneSeptember 18, 2008 at 12:12 AM

    You know what would help?




    Moving to Cincinnati :)

    Seriously though, I eat less when other people are around. When I'm alone no one can judge me for eating a box of swiss cake rolls in one sitting.

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  2. jakeSeptember 18, 2008 at 8:04 AM

    You've probably acquired my appetite somehow. I haven't been eating much, this week, and I didn't know where my appetite went until I read this post.

    It's strange to have the jitters without caffeine, I agree. I'm still having my coffee in the morning, but no Mountain Dew all week...

    I wish I could empathize on the alcohol, but I've been bad this week. I'm not "supposed" to drink when I'm "down", but I find that one beer after work every night is helping me to fall asleep without the usual 2 hour stare-down with the ceiling fan.

    I hope your world starts looking up soon.

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