Well some how it happened again, I don't know how it happens, it just does. I went to church this morning, I have felt the need to go for sometime now but have been avoiding it in fear of feeling angry again, and yet it snuck up on me again. I went today as my cousin's baby was being baptized and I was so torn with emotion I still don't know how to deal with it. My family is so close, we're a tight kint group that would throw parties just so we could all get together. Suddenly this baptism was a great opportunity for a party, and yet most of the family wasn't even invited. None of the cousins, our parents were invited, but none of us. There has been no explanation as to why, which would get rid of much of this anger. I feel hurt, and I know I shouldn't, but at the same time I do. After church everyone was rushing the front to see the baby and visit with the family and I wanted to run out of there as fast as I could. It was not all due to the family issue,...
Stupid cloud! GO AWAY!
ReplyDeletePete, Remember the post when you looked at how far you'd come. Remember that please.
ReplyDeleteRemember that your worth isn't in the amount of money you have, the success of your store, or even the number of your friends. Your worth is found in being the cherished and chosen son of an Almighty God that loves you without condition, without limit, without end.
It will get better. I promise. It WILL get better.
I remember, it was just a small part of it this time.
ReplyDeleteThe rest was just crazy self pity, self defecating, stupid stuff that I now have to sort out, or get over, one of the two.
I'm o.k. now. :) or getting there at least.
Ok, I would like to point out in the most well intended and loving way that you said self defecating.
ReplyDeletePlease allow me to cite dictionary.com:
def·e·cate
to void excrement from the bowels through the anus; have a bowel movement.
I believe you wanted:
DePRecate
to depreciate; belittle
I'm SERIOUSLY laughing my ass off over here! My actual question is, if you don't normally self defecate, then who does it for you?
:shock:
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ReplyDeleteOk, so my comment isn't about the blog, it's about the comments...
ReplyDeleteand might I say ...
EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW... LOL!