What am I apologizing for you may wonder, well I went out last night and had tons of things to talk about, tons of things I wanted to write about from the evening, but halfway through the night I had convinced myself that I couldn't blog about it because my readers may not like the things I say, or tell me how awful I am, and how they can't believe they ever made friends with such a person. This is probably true in many of my circles of friends, but if I have a great night and I can't talk about it with the people I love, why oh why would I want to continue the friendship? On my way home last night I realized that no one has ever given me a reason to think like this, perhaps it is myself still trying to hide behind imaginary conversations and imaginary people judging me from afar, maybe it's me dealing with how I was raised and realizing it was perhaps not quite open minded enough to fully enjoy life. None of you have ever given me a reason to think these things, so w...
Stupid cloud! GO AWAY!
ReplyDeletePete, Remember the post when you looked at how far you'd come. Remember that please.
ReplyDeleteRemember that your worth isn't in the amount of money you have, the success of your store, or even the number of your friends. Your worth is found in being the cherished and chosen son of an Almighty God that loves you without condition, without limit, without end.
It will get better. I promise. It WILL get better.
I remember, it was just a small part of it this time.
ReplyDeleteThe rest was just crazy self pity, self defecating, stupid stuff that I now have to sort out, or get over, one of the two.
I'm o.k. now. :) or getting there at least.
Ok, I would like to point out in the most well intended and loving way that you said self defecating.
ReplyDeletePlease allow me to cite dictionary.com:
def·e·cate
to void excrement from the bowels through the anus; have a bowel movement.
I believe you wanted:
DePRecate
to depreciate; belittle
I'm SERIOUSLY laughing my ass off over here! My actual question is, if you don't normally self defecate, then who does it for you?
:shock:
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ReplyDeleteOk, so my comment isn't about the blog, it's about the comments...
ReplyDeleteand might I say ...
EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW... LOL!