Today started as any ordinary day, forced myself out of bed, got ready for work and went to work. Today was a day I felt self concious, I don't know what brought it on. I was in a comfort zone, a place that doesn't normally trigger this feeling. Today was the day I constantly pulled at my shirt because I felt my bulges were too defined by the tight shirt I'm forced to wear. Today was the day I wouldn't pick things up off the floor because of how I think I look when I bend over in these pants. Today was the day my feet reminded me how much weight I carry around on them all day long. Today was a day I felt customers staring at me thinking "Poor guy in his thirties and this is the best he can do" Today was a day that I felt customers thinking "Hey buddy, just because you work here doesn't mean you have to eat everything, looks like you could put the chicken down" Today was a day that you looked at me and I couldn't speak because I didn't thi...
Stupid cloud! GO AWAY!
ReplyDeletePete, Remember the post when you looked at how far you'd come. Remember that please.
ReplyDeleteRemember that your worth isn't in the amount of money you have, the success of your store, or even the number of your friends. Your worth is found in being the cherished and chosen son of an Almighty God that loves you without condition, without limit, without end.
It will get better. I promise. It WILL get better.
I remember, it was just a small part of it this time.
ReplyDeleteThe rest was just crazy self pity, self defecating, stupid stuff that I now have to sort out, or get over, one of the two.
I'm o.k. now. :) or getting there at least.
Ok, I would like to point out in the most well intended and loving way that you said self defecating.
ReplyDeletePlease allow me to cite dictionary.com:
def·e·cate
to void excrement from the bowels through the anus; have a bowel movement.
I believe you wanted:
DePRecate
to depreciate; belittle
I'm SERIOUSLY laughing my ass off over here! My actual question is, if you don't normally self defecate, then who does it for you?
:shock:
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ReplyDeleteOk, so my comment isn't about the blog, it's about the comments...
ReplyDeleteand might I say ...
EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW... LOL!