Anger

I have decided today that I really need to get my anger under control, just not sure how to do it.

Example:
I was taping up the furnace distribution box when a customer came in. A customer that I rely on to pay my bills which are not getting paid in recent weeks, do I jump at the chance and run up there to help them? No, I chuck a trash can across the room and swear like a sailor under my breath all the way up to the counter on the other end of the store and put on my happy face, all the while screaming inside my head.

Yes, I just took my anti-anxiety medicine, I'm hoping it will kick in soon.

I've got issues.

I'm starting to think I don't belong here anymore. Or I just need sleep, it's been a long week of no sleep and so much activity, it feels as if my two days away this past weekend was a year ago.

Just needed to get that out of me.

Comments

  1. jakeDecember 20, 2008 at 6:56 AM

    I wish Bethany and I lived closer. We could help out more than just commenting...

    That and she gives like The. Best. Hugs. Ever.

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  2. PeteDecember 21, 2008 at 4:33 AM

    Don't sell yourself short my man, you give a pretty damn good hug yourself.

    I could use those more often around here.

    But even virtual hugs do some good.


    Thanks. :)

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