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Sometimes I irritate myself so much from not learning from the past I can barely look at myself in the mirror.


I have so many contradicting thoughts in my head from all over the board, and I have to get up for work in 6 hours. This is why I stopped my drinking patterns over a year ago.

I miss so many people.

I promise all my posts won't be this abstract and so depressing. lol. Really, I'm not depressed, just over judging myself.....or something like that. lol.

'gnight.

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