Sunday, October 19, 2008

Four walls contain so many memories

This past week I've been battling a nasty cold, I feel like it's on it's way out now, but it's still lingering. This has caused me to be extra tired, and at time rather cranky, but I've been surviving. What it also has caused, is me to slow down.

Friday night I was off from Wendy's and normally I take that night to go out and do things with friends, or hang out somewhere, but I was so tired by the time I was done working Friday I did what my mother had been suggesting for quite some time, I stayed home and curled up on the couch. It's become such a rare occasion that I take time to just let myself be sick, rest and heal, and it felt pretty good. It's not uncommon at night for me to space out, I just usually do it somewhere else lol. To top it off today I did nothing. Literally nothing. Well nothing to me always means something. :) I managed to get out of bed long enough to go to lunch with my parents, then came home and laid down on the couch. Other than that the only thing I got off the couch to do was to put the electric blanket on my bed, because it's freaking cold in here!

I fought the urge all day to be up doing stuff, but I told myself I needed rest, so that's just what I did. I watched movies and laid on the couch all freaking day. Genia popped in on her way into town (yeah geina!!) and we spent an hour or so talking and making plans for this week for her visit! She's booked solid as always but there is time to catch up in there. :) Now that I've rested all day I'm not tired. dang it. But I'm sure my dosage of cold medicine will kick in soon and send me off to bed.

The title of the blog? Yeah, you probably didn't even think of it. Well in my spare time today I did manage to spend a little time off of the couch because I've decided to start organizing all my computer files, on both computers. I spent Saturday organizing the office computer and I spent some time today moving files around on my personal computer. Most of what I have on this personal computer is pictures. I've managed to keep all my pictures on this computer so I was backing them up to my external hard drive, and sometime I'll copy them all onto DVD. All this so that someday I'll be able to get them printed out and put together albums.

These photos are a collection of everything I've taken with my digital camera over the last four years. Four years, it sounds like such a short amount of time. I've only been here in the store for three, at times it feels like an eternity, but it seems like such a short span of time in the grand scheme of things. I look over these pictures and I realize just how many special moments I've had in these past four years. I spend most of my time thinking I'm not doing anything with my life, but these pictures prove me wrong. The people I've met, the memories I've made, the places I've been, each moment nearly forgotten about. I love pictures, mostly because I really don't have that great of a memory, it takes something to trigger many of these memories, and these pictures flooded me with all the good stuff.

I have literally thousands of pictures of my times, and it's only a small portion of the picture collection I have of my life. It just amazes me at times. It also makes me wish I carried my camera with me more, what about the times not on film? I know the memories are in there somewhere, just waiting for something to trigger them and bring them back to life. How could I be unhappy with a few instances in my life, when I have all these happy memories, all these happy times happening all around me, and I just don't seem to recognize them until I look backwards. I find it so strange. I've been trying to recognize these moments more while I'm in the moment, and I'm starting to get a good grip on the idea. Small little things, the way someone laughs, the conversations that were had, or the look on someones face while I talk to them, I keep trying to implant them more and more into my memory.

Well I think that's enough of my rambling on and on for today. :) Time to crawl into my wonderfully warm bed and rest even more. :)

1 comment:

  1. Woot! I was mentioned in a blog! :-)

    I LOVE pictures. Tis why I scrapbook so much. And, I too, have been organizing my files on my computer and putting everything onto ONE computer and backing up all my photos. I've got almost ALL of them scanned in from my pre-digital camera days. I have 4 more photo boxes to go and then I'm done and caught up and completely digitized! :-)