So I really shouldn't post when I'm like this but I have to say I love kahki pants.
Not on me so much as I haven't found a comfortable pair yet, but I think that's because of my size. But I had 8 count them 8 customers today of the male persuasion of course come in wearing the greatest kahki's I could imagine.
They hugged in all the right places and made me swoon. yes, swoon. LOL.
I just had to share that bit of information.
I've been so busy lately I have not had the time to blog much about anything. Sadly with as busy as I've been there hasn't been much to blog about. Just mundane things.
I would ordinarily say there isn't much "gay" going on in my life as this is what I created this blog for, but there really isn't anything going on. There are things as usual, but not really anything worthy of a blog. Well there is but it's something I can post on my other blog, and I will if I can get through this one and get it done before I pass out.
I've been wanting more in my social life lately. I'm not sure what more I'm looking for, but I'm looking for something exciting, something different, something maybe cultural, or something sophisticated. I don't know, but I need something. Yes, probably that too, but there is something more than physical needs right now that I'm craving and I'm not sure what it is. This will be interesting.
So I have a foot in the door for a possible position in my field in N.C. Further than I had originally thought I wanted but the more I think about it, the more I think it might be good for me. I haven't told many people about it because people freak out when I talk like that, but the two people I've told have been fairly excited about it, but I'm not even thinking about it much. I really have this need and desire to finish this place before I try to sell it. I'm not sure if it's the need to see it complete that's driving me or the fear of rejection from my profession that's preventing me from moving on this.
Or could it be the constant battle of leaving. Every bad day I have still has good in it. I look around at the people I love around here and wonder if I can leave them again. The scary part is that the people I love and am not related to, are not the people I expected it to be. Perhaps it's because I'm used to leaving the others, or perhaps it's because friendships are not the same as they were when I left the first time. When I left life went on and I have just not found my way into those lives again, some of it my fault I will admit, but non the less, it's happened. I still love them, but it's not been the same. But life moves on and I'm o.k. with it. The important parts are still there and even F and I have drawn closer. And there have been plenty of new people that I also love that will be a part of my life forever.
The decision on N.C. will wait, the thinking of it will wait, for now. I have too much to achieve yet while I'm here. I've prayed and I don't feel I'm done here. I feel my time is coming closer to being done here, but it's not yet.