It's crazy to think that I'm in a financial funk, but then again I've been in it for years now. I know I'm going to be fine, but the unknowns are killing me.
When will I start working? How much is the move going to cost me? Will I have the money to do anything once I get moved? How am I going to afford living somewhere else?
Just talking about money digs me further and further into a hole. Everything is current except one bill and yet it feels as if it's going to all fall apart so quickly, I know it won't, I really do know it won't, but my mind is racing all on it's own.
I spent sometime today working on a house design to take my mind off of it. It's a house that will probably never be built, it's for no one in particular but it helps take my mind off of things. Some people play video games, I design homes. lol.
Being in this building still does not help my mental state of mind, it's as if everything is still the same.
O.K. breath, calm down. Breath deeper, think of something else. I'm going to be fine. Everything is going to work out just fine. Everything will come together, it's going to be great, just take it step by step, day by day and it will be just fine. I've been through times harder than this and I came out on the other side just fine, and this will be no different.
O.K. feeling a little better.......maybe.