Monday, July 12, 2010

Financial Funk

It's crazy to think that I'm in a financial funk, but then again I've been in it for years now. I know I'm going to be fine, but the unknowns are killing me.

When will I start working? How much is the move going to cost me? Will I have the money to do anything once I get moved? How am I going to afford living somewhere else?

Just talking about money digs me further and further into a hole. Everything is current except one bill and yet it feels as if it's going to all fall apart so quickly, I know it won't, I really do know it won't, but my mind is racing all on it's own.

I spent sometime today working on a house design to take my mind off of it. It's a house that will probably never be built, it's for no one in particular but it helps take my mind off of things. Some people play video games, I design homes. lol.

Being in this building still does not help my mental state of mind, it's as if everything is still the same.

O.K. breath, calm down. Breath deeper, think of something else. I'm going to be fine. Everything is going to work out just fine. Everything will come together, it's going to be great, just take it step by step, day by day and it will be just fine. I've been through times harder than this and I came out on the other side just fine, and this will be no different.

O.K. feeling a little better.......maybe.


  1. Alright, let me try this again....

    Pete, it's so hard to see the way out of the hole when you're in it. I'm right there with you.
    But you can afford to live somewhere besides where you are, it just might take some adjusting. But you won't be doing it alone.
    You don't have to figure out how to pay the phone bill, the cable bill, the internet bill, water bill, electric bill on your own (some of them not at all unless you jack up my rates!) because I'll be figuring it out with you and you and me.
    Love you dear, and I can't wait until you move into my basement! (not a euphamism)

  2. I sometimes think the hardest part is remembering I won't be doing it alone. After all these years of doing it alone (not euphemism)it's hard to imagine having someone there to figure it out with.