It's been a whirlwind of a week and a half, full of new changes, new hours and a new life. It's taking so long to get used to, having free time, it's such a strange feeling.
The first day out of the store was amazing. I slept in a little, did a little cleaning, met up with my brother to fix some plumbing in one of the rentals and that led to eating lunch out. I then went for a quiet swim at my aunt's house, a time that was so quiet. No phones, no buzzers, no customers, just me on a raft soaking up some sun. It was great. Then I went to work, but it was o.k. lol.
My first Tuesday back in the store was a rough one. I was not expecting the emotional back lash to opening again and listening to the questions, and the comments, and the snide remarks, but I made it and felt good by the end of it, and I think I'm ready for this week.
The new schedule is one to get used to, it's different almost every day and allows extra time at different times. Working on my feet for 8 hours a day on concrete floors in bad shoes has been something to get used to, but I like it. I feel as if I have a purpose when I'm at work. I know what to do, I know how to do it, and I know how long it should take. I don't have the financial responsibility for the store or the employees within. It's such a weight off of my shoulders to know that if a piece of equipment breaks down that it's not my check book in the balance. I miss working for someone else. lol.
I've discovered that I work harder for someone else than I did for myself, I can leave my work at work and when I get home, it's me time. I got to clean most of this house, I still have a few rooms to do, but for the most part I'm starting to feel human again. It's not always easy to spend time with my friends who work first shift when I essentially work second, but it's working out. I have however missed spending time online. I feel like I'm disconnected from so many of you because I'm not around to chat or get constant updates about how everyone is doing, or how your days are going, I do miss that.
Other than that things are going well, I'm getting caught up on a lot of things in my personal life, packing, organizing, purging, and just cleaning. It feels good to have a clean house, it's been so long. It's nice to run to the store when you need to, run to the post office and live a normal life. I also got to go to lunch with my mother and we had a wonderful afternoon and some great conversation. I guess you could say I'm a momma's boy, and I'm o.k. with that.
There are some things in the works that could allow my dad to retire in the next month or so, so maybe I'll be a daddy's boy too. lol. It would mean a great deal for my dad to be able to get out of his job finally. It's been in the last two months I've noticed just how old my father has gotten and it's a scary insight into the future. I hope getting him to retire will allow him to slow down, not work the seven days a week in the factory and be able to relax and get to the things he's put off for so long.
I'm still worried about the financial aspect of this new life, but I won't really know about those for a few months yet until everything gets on a schedule and my full time checks start coming in. This will be an interesting month in that aspect, so I hope everything goes well.
Working during the day has had it's upbeat though. New people at work, new conversations, new interactions so it's been nice in that aspect. There's also the new guy! He's so cute, chiseled chin, sculpted body, and I just can't figure him out. He wears his pants lower, but has no other signs of being the normal thug normally found in this town. He quiet, he's polite, he gets some of my 80's references, so I can't figure him out. He doesn't really talk enough yet to share any information. He has a big belt buckle which I find incredibly sexy that says something with the word "phat" in it, but I can't make it out......not from a lack of trying lol. I find it intriguing to have a challenge at work, someone to get to know, but have to break into you know? Most new people spout off all sorts of information to show off or impress everyone, but not him, and I find it endearing.
Still no news on selling, we're trying to figure out a new place to advertise because the local papers haven't proven to be fruitful with leads, so we're still working on it. I just can't wait to be done and out of here. The one thing with working fast food is the conversations are limited, and it does get old after awhile.
Well anyway I forget where I was going with this so I'll end it before I ramble on even more. lol. When I find a clear thought I'll try to start again. ;)