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I do feel like I have a home, but sometimes I don't think I belong here, like I'm on the outside looking in.

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  1. ellenjaneDecember 26, 2007 at 4:19 PM

    I think I'm afraid of having a home (see my most recent self indulgent blog). I also think that's why any home I have is in organizational chaos at all times : )

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