I love change, don't get me wrong. I enjoy moving furniture a lot, I enjoy breaking out of ruts, I enjoy moving (well not the actual moving part), I enjoy so much about change. The new scenery, the new people, the new everything. I get so lost in the euporhia of the change it isn't until I'm knee deep into it that I realize just how terrifying it is. When I first decided to move to Michigan, I had my mind set, there was just not stopping me. I wanted to go back to school, and I just kept pushing forward without even thinking of it too much. Day after day, decision after decision I just kept moving forward. It wasn't until I had moved my stuff and my parents had gone away and I was driving around trying to find different things in the are when I completly fell apart and wondered what in the hell I thought I was doing. I remember sitting in my car balling because I had no idea what I was doing, I didn't know anyone, I didn't know where anything was, I knew ...
Stupid cloud! GO AWAY!
ReplyDeletePete, Remember the post when you looked at how far you'd come. Remember that please.
ReplyDeleteRemember that your worth isn't in the amount of money you have, the success of your store, or even the number of your friends. Your worth is found in being the cherished and chosen son of an Almighty God that loves you without condition, without limit, without end.
It will get better. I promise. It WILL get better.
I remember, it was just a small part of it this time.
ReplyDeleteThe rest was just crazy self pity, self defecating, stupid stuff that I now have to sort out, or get over, one of the two.
I'm o.k. now. :) or getting there at least.
Ok, I would like to point out in the most well intended and loving way that you said self defecating.
ReplyDeletePlease allow me to cite dictionary.com:
def·e·cate
to void excrement from the bowels through the anus; have a bowel movement.
I believe you wanted:
DePRecate
to depreciate; belittle
I'm SERIOUSLY laughing my ass off over here! My actual question is, if you don't normally self defecate, then who does it for you?
:shock:
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ReplyDeleteOk, so my comment isn't about the blog, it's about the comments...
ReplyDeleteand might I say ...
EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW... LOL!